The Auras
The Auras
My name is Erik and I can tell when someone will die. Ever since I was a child, I could see people outlined in white like they were their very own flashlight. One day when my dad went to work, I saw a black aura around him ...he never came back. I started realizing a pattern, when the aura starts to get darker, that certain person would edge closer to their death by the hour, and once it’s pitch black, I would know that it was over for them. I found out that I can’t look at my own aura without a mirror, but when I do, I’m relieved that my aura was white. Everyday when I walk to work, I see all different kinds of auras, white ones, gray ones, and sometimes even black ones. and I felt that I should’ve told those people to go straight home and lock all their doors. But I knew that this was inevitable, once you see the black aura, you can’t change it. I could even see on the news sometimes, that one of the people I saw with a black aura had been murdered or had died in some tragic way. But on my walk to work, it’s also the time when I get to focus on other things in my life, I managed to stare at in aw at the tall skyscrapers, people bustling about, happy couples, families, I get to look at dogs playing around in the park, I live in Manhattan so when people aren’t around it gives me a lonely sense yet a sense of relief. I went to visit my family for Christmas and I started weeping. My mother had a really dark aura. She died a few weeks later of End-Stage cancer. I still can’t wrap my head around the idea of what I can do. When my mother finally died, it felt like I was ripping out my own heart. Everyday, I contemplate my decisions wondering if there was anyway I could put a to stop to it, I decided that this was something that I had to put aside, there were too many things going on in my life right now.
I continued living my life, but now I truly started to try and help people, tell them to at least be safer, they would look at me as if I was I high or needed help. Once they started walking away,I would scream at them and call them idiots for not listening. I finally accepted that I would have to live with the torture of knowing when someone would die, I gave up on helping them. I would live my life, go to work, come back, cuddle with my dog, etc., but I felt so hopeless. I wanted someone to help me but no one would be able to understand, I’ve tried. I’ve gone to therapists, they would kind of chuckle and recommend some ADHD pills to see if it would calm my brain down. I did try those pills, it made me feel really uncomfortable, it made me feel like a major thing in my life has gone away, however definitely not a good thing, but I still knew that it wasn’t my mind playing tricks on me because it was really happening, people were really dying when I looked at their auras, so much of it happened, so much of it was real. I would try to hypnotize myself, tell myself every night before I went to bed that this was all fake, and I would hopefully wake up and this was just one terrible dream. When all of this failed, I tried staying in my home for as long as possible, tell my boss that I was sick. But my boss told me that if I can’t go to work, he would have to replace someone in my position for too many days off. So I had to go to work without any choice and I would focus on nothing but the road. I had to drive to work today because the sidewalks on the way to my work were being re-done. I pulled down the visor to block the sun, and when I looked at the mirror, I saw my body masked in a black outline, It was as if I was looking at the blank night sky shaped into a human. I started to panic and I realized that maybe these were the ADHD pills messing with my mind. I saw a red light, I pressed the brake… nothing was happening. I pulled the emergency brake, no reaction, I tried turning my car out of the way. The steering wheel was stuck in place. I hear blaring horns of a vehicle. Right before I close my eyes, I see a 18 ton truck right in front of my car.
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